ok I feel better, I was really down for a little while but I'm on the how to fix it phase.
I did some things.
I'm on the right track.
I told someone, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...... when I'm done with all this I should be able to bend steel with my bare hands.
this is why I just can't fathom getting into a realtionship right now. I thought I could, but today I figured out that I can't. I can't just set all my crap at someone's doorstep and say "Love me anyway". Unconditional love from anyone but your family is a load of hooey anyhow.
I have alot of things to be proud of though. I'm a lot more interesting than the back of a tube of toothpaste it would seem. And this is a great compliment considering the context.
Bigger and Better things.
Indeed. Indeed.