I'm trying to decide if I'm too lazy to make pancakes from scratch. I think I'm far too lazy.
I was supposed to be off for the entire day today but I was called into work. Oh well, that's how it goes. I'm only going in for a few hours tonight and then leaving early tomorrow.
I took Saturday off, for the festivities. Yesterday I was seriously down about it all. I just wanted to cancel the whole thing. I don't know why. I just don't feel like having a birthday but I already planned the stuff so the show must go on. He Who Loves Tortise kept telling me I was full of crap because here I was planning all this stuff and then complaining that I didn't want to have a birthday. But the real deal is if I plan it I have control over it. No one can make me do anything I don't want to do this way. If I were to cancel I have a feeling they would make me go do something. They would not allow me to not have a birthday.
D did buy my the prettiest hat to wear for my birthday so going out is not so bad. Cause my new hat is super cute (thanks D!)
I should also make completely clear that if anyone tips off the wait staff that it is my birthday, heads will roll. I want no annoying table side singing or other birthday related humilation. this is not one of those "oh I don't want that." and I secretly do.... The can be NO singing. I hate it! I will be upset if it happens....... I might even cry if it happens. The only person that gets to sing to me is my mom when she calls me drunk from Vegas on my birthday.
In other news I had to go pick up something from JB last night. I made D go with. I just didn't want to go by myself. He looked..... good. I can't lie.... he's still very attractive to me, not a whole lot I can do about it. Things were awkward, I guess we've come to a point where we don't have much to say to each other these days. Who would have ever guessed that would have happened? Not me, we blabbed endlessly for 4 months about everything and anything.
D and I had a very interesting conversation about him. Alot of things made sense. There is about a handful of advice I would love to give him but it's not my place. It's not even advice really, more of an observation but who knows if it would make a difference........
Today is not the day that I'm going to delve into the baby fever. but it's there and thank goodness it too shall pass.
Now, I'm sure I could go play ALter Ego for at least an hour before I have to do anything else.... Damn you Mr B&B!!!!