I don't feel really much better.
he slammed on the brakes, me I'm thinking I'll just take a whole 'nother road to avoid collision.
honestly I'm starting to think the whole thing is better not happening.
I don't want to ruin th fact that I've never ever met someone like him by getting myself in a situation where I could get hurt and then he's tainted and stupid and insensitive like all the rest of the boys...
That makes no sense at all does it? I just don't want to someday look at him and think God he's an asshole just like the rest of them. soooooo if nothing ever happens, then he's never in a position to be an asshole.
ok maybe in my own little logic world does that makes sense.
and it's not that I don't want it cause I do. I want it too much so therefor I probably shouldn't have it.
I don't know.