I'm starting to get the old birthday blues.......
things are just feeling not good.
I've never really liked birthdays.
I always have high hopes something really great will happen. and it never really does. I spent my last birthday crying because I got stood up.
The only time that I can think of once where someone really went out of their way crazy like... ok 2 times. Sara has flown out for my birthday cause that's just extremely expensive..... the other was when Chris bought two tickets to my first hockey game 5 rows from the glass for my 21st birthday. so I give Chris the props for that.
Maybe if I stopped thinking something cool might happen every year something cool really would happen...... anyhow.
I'm looking forward to this trip. really I am but it's not really about my birthday. I thought it was at first but it's really not and that's ok. I'll still have fun.
it's just a blue day. I guess.