so I've never been an embarrassment to someone's life before. wow. ouch. feeling sick. I may throw up. who knew your hands could shake so much you almost can't type.
and to think I was trying to think nice thoughts about him. Was thinking nice thoughts about him on my way to work, despite badness between us. How proud of myself I was for being ableto brush the whole thing off, and just roll my eyes at him living in overreaction-land. And then it came. He can still shake my confidence after all these years. how do you thank someone for ruining you? Can't even bring myself to think bad thoughts about him.