I am incredibly apathetic.
I suddenly get something I never understood before. Why something happened. It really was apathy. I was never apathetic before at least not about this particular thing but I could totally just let it go.... not out of lack of interest but just out of lack of energy.
I'm still gonna make an effort but it's hard you know.
I've never been this way and I can not figure out what it is.
I guess it's that whole idealism thing. Fuck if I know.
That and too many choices.